Once again, down the valley of my dark despair,
a sense of emptiness, of lost, of unfulfilled dreams...
i carry the mark of a fallen
i dream at night, toss fitfully,
wake up and ... nothing
my dreams are empty and hollow,
and all that's left is me,
alone in my thoughts,
in pain, in despair
go back to basics,
in fetal, clutching my knees tight,
rocking, over and over again,
deep breaths
pulse slowed,
vision cleared,
order restored,
a smile
i live to fight another day
my daily internal struggle...
Monday, July 30, 2007
Sunday, July 29, 2007
a time to focus... consolidation is the key to concentrated success... prioritization is necessary to allocate scarce resources... realised there's so much i want to do. To build determination is to ingrain it into habits...
1) Squash - Finally found a squash partner and a squash court that is close to town. My trusty Wilson Hammer hasn't seen the florescent light of the courts in more than a half-year. Will aim for all tuesdays after work to play.
2) Tennis - Am stabilizing myself to play at least once a week. Same situation as above, found a court and an enthusiastic friend near home. Maybe all saturday mornings or evenings.
3) Badminton - Learnt that there is a badminton SIG. Mondays, 7pm... at SSC. Still contemplating, but it's very attractive, the only issue is getting to there. To consider and decide in a week...
4) Running - Signed up for Standard Chartered Marathon, at the goading of W. Heck, it's only 42.195km. Means I need to start clocking up the miles now. Twice a week, for now, at 10km. Sunday and Wednesday then. Got my running shoes and my music, that's all i need.
5) Roller-blading - Still a continual passion. Zipping up and down the coastline is just so relaxing. Keeps me from thinking about all the pressures of work... Once a week, Either Thursday or Saturday
6) Gym - To make it worthwhile, need to clock at least twice a week. Am running out of time to do work. Maybe can run in the gym on wednesday. Another time is Fridays. To alternate weights and cardio.
So packed... do i really have the time?
1) Squash - Finally found a squash partner and a squash court that is close to town. My trusty Wilson Hammer hasn't seen the florescent light of the courts in more than a half-year. Will aim for all tuesdays after work to play.
2) Tennis - Am stabilizing myself to play at least once a week. Same situation as above, found a court and an enthusiastic friend near home. Maybe all saturday mornings or evenings.
3) Badminton - Learnt that there is a badminton SIG. Mondays, 7pm... at SSC. Still contemplating, but it's very attractive, the only issue is getting to there. To consider and decide in a week...
4) Running - Signed up for Standard Chartered Marathon, at the goading of W. Heck, it's only 42.195km. Means I need to start clocking up the miles now. Twice a week, for now, at 10km. Sunday and Wednesday then. Got my running shoes and my music, that's all i need.
5) Roller-blading - Still a continual passion. Zipping up and down the coastline is just so relaxing. Keeps me from thinking about all the pressures of work... Once a week, Either Thursday or Saturday
6) Gym - To make it worthwhile, need to clock at least twice a week. Am running out of time to do work. Maybe can run in the gym on wednesday. Another time is Fridays. To alternate weights and cardio.
So packed... do i really have the time?
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